The life of a chronic overachiever

If I’m being honest, I’ve been a chronic overachiever my whole life. I want to maximize my productivity throughout the day, so I find myself easily annoyed with myself if I’m not getting my checklist done for the day. It’s kind of silly because I put more things on my checklist than I could possibly do in a twenty-four hour period. To make it even crazier I have a master monthly list which I try to fit in between my daily, and weekly lists. I end up so stressed out because I spend more time stressing about not being able to get things done that by the end of the time I’ve accomplished not even half of what I wanted to.

Let me rewind to the start of the year, eight months ago, when I picked up a second job because I can make extra money and still balance everything it’ll be great! That was the biggest lie I’ve ever told myself and I guess I didn’t learn my lesson because when asked if I could work thirty-five hours instead of fifteen in addition to my full-time job, I agreed. Sleep is for the week you know? I realized my mistake on day three; cursing myself as I dragged myself up at 5 AM after having gotten home from work at 2:30 Am. I felt like crying all the time and my tolerance was at an all-time low. I was furious at myself so I took it out on others. If anyone knows me, they know I love my sleep and need at least 10 hours to fully function, needless to say, I was struggling. The kicker is I didn’t even need the money, I was doing it to feel productive. When I did have a rare night off I was so tired, I’d fall asleep the minute I got home.

I wasn’t enjoying life and I was extremely miserable, but I refused to quit. I would rather live my half zombie life than fail. As we all know, I was super busy but not at all productive. It seems like common sense but I missed it big time! I wish I could go back in time and take a different path but the past will stay in the past. I have learned my lesson, these past few months, and will choose a different way in the future. I was literally benefiting no one. Yesterday, I finally finished my second job and I am so thankful. I went through hell and came back exhausted but alive. In the future, I am committed to choosing to have a healthy work-life balance. I will be choosing to only work a certain amount of hours and spending more time enjoying life. I got so caught up about being productive I missed out on a lot. Part of loving yourself, it allowing yourself to rest and relax. I know that when I’m burnt out, doing tasks seem eighty times harder than when I am refreshed and at my best.

What are ways that you achieve a healthy work-life balance?

 

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